| today was cool..i saw friends and my boyfriend..and tomorrow i'm hanging out with another friend and maybe my boyfriend i dunno it depends..
anywho i dont feel so depressed but i cant shake the feeling that i dont look good anymore..i mean i thought i looked good when my waist was 23in..but now it's 27in
i've been so paranoid lately..i cant shake the feeling someone is watching me and waiting for the right momment to act...ahh i feel so scared each day and my aniexty is getting worst i need to see my doctor |
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| i dunno anymore..i feel like i cant breath easy anymore...i dunno..i feel so disgusted with myself i've gained weight..and i feel so awful when i do gain weight,i feel like i'm a total failure and that i cant do anything right anymore..because maintaining weight is easy but i'm too busy trying to keep it a secret from my family..i puke still..atleast a couple times a day..ahh i cant handle this shit...i went from being anorexic..to bulimia..ohwell shit happens..i'll loose the weight eventually..because everytime i eat i get sick..and my stomach hurts..so i dont eat and if i do i puke..so i'm loosing weight,..so woot |
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